Oh, THERE I Am

Lately I've been having glimpses of me every now and then.  The me that is truly me.  Not cowering.  Not worrying over every little blip.  But those times aren't very common.  However, as those times come, I wake up a little bit more each time.  I remember that I'm not who he has said...I'm not hard hearted nor unforgiving.  I don't give up easily.  I'm no quitter.  But I forget.  Too often, I forget.  Too often I struggle to keep the peace.  To hope that all of this will just go away.  To survive instead of thrive.  And.......frankly.....it's stupid.  And I'm not stupid.  I want to see this girl on a regular basis.  I want to live life instead of trying to get by.  I want to focus on the good.  Hard to be so constantly overwhelmed.
Getting stronger.....a little at a time....day by day.....and I smile when I think, "oh, THERE she is."
grace to you.