Too Much in My Heart

Sometimes it is difficult for me to write.  To express myself. Too much in my heart.  Not enough words or the right words to express it all.  Too deep.  Too big.  And expressing my thoughts....seems so small.  I have this feeling tonight.

So blessed.  I have been given friendship.  People to walk beside me.  It seems so simple.  But I'm not talking the passing kind of thing.  I'm talking about the long haul.  The....forever kind.  Even if they are not around, a part of me.  Irrevocably.

My ex I don't miss.  I feel guilty about that regularly.  But there are others who have actually cared for me.  For real.  Not with a constant need to put me down or make me small.  But with kindness.  In my hardest times.  Best times.  Far away.  Near.  Doesn't matter.  Talking.  Silence.  Getting it right.  Mistakes.  Still....doesn't matter.

I am deeply, profoundly, beyond words, touched by this and am thankful.  And those words are so very inadequate.  

But they are all I have.